*Note - This entry is a bit late but that is because of the nature of it! :) :) :) It's actually from a few weekends ago.
You know how people say, "It was truly a weekend to remember..."?
Well, we had a weekend to remember. Really. In fact, I don't think Justin and I will ever forget it.
We spent the weekend in the mountains of Sacramento, New Mexico. Yes, there is a Sacramento, New Mexico. It is small. But it is beautiful.
We traveled the five hour journey to Sacramento for a couples retreat put on through our church, and, as I had mentioned in a previous entry, we were leading worship with some dear friends of ours, Jay and Amy Lewis.
It was a blessing to get to lead worship in such a beautiful place. And, because it was a couples retreat, we really felt like we were "retreating" together.
We got there early to practice on Thursday, and ate lunch with a wonderful group of leaders and friends. It was very laid back. We ate at a cute little place called "Big Daddy's Diner," (Yes, it is called Big Daddy's) in Cloudcroft, NM. Really good food and good service.
Okay, a few months ago, I was in prayer, and I had one of those times where you are really honest and crying, and you feel very strongly that you actually waited long enough to think you have heard him speak back? Yes, one of those times.
I was outside watching the stars and enjoying just praying to the Lord and really talking to him, and, of course about a baby, because that's what I always talk to him about these days. No, I'm not persistent! Lol.
But anyway, I had been telling him about all the upcoming trips we had, and that I really wanted a sweet baby to come along, despite the fact that I might have morning sickness during all these trips. And he KNOWS how much I hate being nauseated. Ha!
And I really felt like he was ASKING me, "Amber, do you really want this baby now? I can give it to you now."
And I know this may seem strange to some people, but I heard October or November. And at the time, I thought, "Hmm. Okay. That would be cool, but not sure if I heard that correctly."
But, that was when I started planning how I would share during the retreat about a new baby, just in case.
God is faithful, ya'll.
It has been at least a good year of trying. A year of questioning, trying, then sometimes not trying out of frustration. A year of why's? A year of hmmm...maybe three is not for us. Maybe we're not good enough parents? All these things go through your minds!
And it always seemed that when I was reading the Psalms, I would fall across the ones about your children being olive shoots around your table. Doesn't that always happen when you are wanting something? You just "come across" the subject in the bible. No...I was probably searching for it. In fact, I'm pretty sure I was. And the story of Abraham and Sarah. I couldn't get it out of my head.
And now we are here.
And I just keep remembering hearing God say, "It's in my hands. Don't worry. I got this."
I'm so glad for new beginnings. I'm so glad for unexpected blessings.
We have an indescribable God.
Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in his ways.
You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours.
Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your sons will be like olive shoots around your table. Thus is the man blessed who fears the Lord.
May the Lord bless you from Zion all the days of your life;
may you see the prosperity of Jerusalem, and may you live to see your children's children.
Peace be upon Israel.